Panadol >_<

Ewww I feel like I'm getting sick ><. NOOOOO I can't get sick, weight lost!!! ARGH hope this panadol cures me and I wake up just fine. If not lots of hard work is going to go to waist..... BLEH POSITIVE THINKING!!
Oh and it's damn boring, theres no one to talk to. Should be studying but i feel boredddddd. COME ON SOMEONE!! CHAT!!!

Sg. Rambai

Good memories. It was awesome staying with Chow, Kai Shek n Syed with Pn. Sarimah. Our "Mak" for 3 days. A whole different type of "camp" experience if its called a camp. Best school outing to date. No offence scouters, but this is just so different. Relaxing with frens, chilling out, 0 stress. Was great doing the heart 2 heart talk with Chow till 1. Then crapping with Thien Siang till 4am. Funny SHIT lol. Yes Mr. Ceng YEW!! may kill us all lol.

Discovered a lot more about Chow that I didn't know about him. Played futsal at night, in the morning, whenever lol. Great experience thank you prefect board 2008/2009.

Realization

Was approached by an ex-senior and he asked " Have you given up?"........
Hrmm interesting, yeah its true I have given up, a realization that dawned on me the moment I left that camp. Maybe all the " We wont make this n that tests" are just ways I'm telling myself that I'm not interested in it anymore. Someone whom I've practically never had a proper conversation with, said the magic word. " PASSION". Yeah it's really about the passion, it's not about wanting it for the sake of wanting something more. Passion for this died out when I started playing basketball. So farewell to this dream. Farewell King Scout, perhaps I will meet you again later if I ever get the passion again, probably not.

Merentas Desa/Sports Day

Well since I haven't updated in a long time so I'll just talk about 2 big events that happened recently lol. Well Merentas Desa hapenned earlier so I'll talk about that first :P

IT was just horrible we had to go to school on a saturday >< Was aiming for top 10 from like I think last year when I started running lol(Was running for bball fitness not training for merentas desa:P) Too bad I stopped running 2 weeks b4 merentas desa >< But yeah so race started everyone was like all running, "I was like WOW so much competition!! Everyone's going pretty fast 2!" Then later on in the race I slowly cut past more n more people, aiya Jason Leong was just like infront me for a very very long time! Too bad I never had the energy to cut him.. Soo many times I just felt like stopping to take a breather but never did cuz I was too scared I'd get too tired to restart the run lol. Finally Shun Ren cut me and i got 12 sigh ><....... BUT STILL 12 isn't that bad considering I never ran in form 2,3,4 and I didn't get a number in form 1 lol(Contributed to Temenggung best lelaki kelas 1 :D). Evil & Retarded Latiffah didn't give no Monday holiday sigh... Went to gym after that, used the normal weights for the lifts even though I ran in the morning. SO PROUD! lol

Sports Day was well more boring than all the previous years but I guess it was different as well, since I got to play arnd alot with the PBSM and friends, n make new friends 2 unlike previous years. Got to talk to Garry, Serene, Clement, Manwyn after prefects kawad and steal* wait no... erm was offered! some PBSM food lol. Later went over with Clement to his post with Baoyu n Sook Shian n weakling Zain LOL. Later Cat came along lol and Clement left. Was kinda fun chatting with the PBSM'ers lol. It was kinda cool watching the people I knew running on the track giving it all they had. Gratz Amirul for d award!

After sports day pulak go tuition with Wern Xin n Xin Yi. Xin Yi kept telling me to skip 1 class and eat instead. But in the end we decided to bring McD to the tuition class n eat it there lol. Was happily munching at d back with my chicken burger n fries when tiba-tiba teacher told me to hurry up n finish my burger towards the end of class with my filet-o-fish in my mouth >< Funny as hell cuz i was like looking at her with a mouth full and like the burger on my left hand(get the mental image? :P) She thought I was still eating my first burger from like 3pm(it was like 4pm then) haizz teacher.... Bio pulak Wern Xin left me n Xin Yi for some other class(4got edi lol) He gave us a test on chapter 3, and we were like soo blur as hell didn't know what to do. So we were gonna just nod when he asked us for the answer, he'd be like number 3...nod...answer? nod... LOL but instead we were too busy laughing when he asked us and Xin Yi just laughingly said dunno when he asked him, and then he asked me "how about you boy?" , "*Laughing*dunno*Laughing*". Then went to toilet to ponteng class for awhile, making jokes all arnd the corridor. Kebetulan when we come back he was giving all the answers LOL

Well that about sums up both my sats.

The Aimless Cockroach

Boy oh boy soo much work to do...... Too bad for me I cant actually get to doing the work >< Like Manwyn said "sometimes you gotta know your way on when to do and when not to" :P

Life is sooo pointless this year... Its like there's nothing to do for a reason. No reason to go to school, no reason to do homework, no reason to carry out your responsibilities... Only thing to do is like basketball and weight lifting. Thats like the only thing i look forward to doing... Everything else is just like a blur.. Its like ure just travelling, going on in this coma state.. "why go on? why continue?" No im not suicidal :P Im just aimless :P Whats the purpose of doing things really... Last year was different... I felt more apart of something, but the same people I shared that with, well I dont have much to talk about to talk to those people anymore.... either we dont exactly do the same things or we just have nothing to share with each other.

Well as Garry, Serene and probably Tim would put it, you're blessed with good friends at least. Yeah thats true. And Wern Xin would say believe in positive things, dont attract negative thoughts lol. Yeah I guess we are truly blessed with good friends, every single one of them. Those shining beacons in your life, guiding you every step of the way, waiting to catch you when u fall. Hopefully these shining beacons can guide me out of this darkness. Good night :)